Last night I was driving home after a great dinner with some gals from church...I was in deep thought.
The past couple of weeks I have been catching up with lots of people. Having a child with big medical needs not to mention special needs has thrown us into this community that is full of pain, praying, unanswered prayers, miracles and so many things that I could not begin to articulate. I talked with a friend that both her children have a terrible degenerative disease, another whose son has a brain tumor, a new friend who son is constantly in and out the hospital with problems similar to Brayden, an friend of the family who husband is battling a brain tumor, not the mention all of the blogs that I try to catch up on. I also starting reading a memoir of a mom whose son was diagnosed with some of the same things to Brayden.
There is so much pain. There is so much sickness. There are so many hurting, fighting and praying. So many questions and searching for solutions.
My conversations with them are about our experiences with doctors, hospitals, therapies, medications, frustrations...trying to find joy and humor in many of those circumstances. I am honored to be able to talk to them about it all.
I was thinking about all of these people, praying for them.
I heard this song on the radio last night as I was driving. It says what I would be trying to say.
How long must I pray, must I pray to You?
How long must I wait, must I wait for You?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.
I'm on my knees, Father will you turn to me?
One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breakin' heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart
Please watch both videos. It is good.
Behind the Song