I am tired this week.
Tired of dealing with medical things.
Tired of making phone calls for all of Brayden's things.
Tired of being the ONE and ONLY person to make major medical decisions for Brayden (botox, vomiting)
Tired of Brayden vomiting all day long and through the night.
Tired of pulling the car over to take care of Brayden's vomit.
Tired of Brayden screaming in the car for no apparent reason.
Tired of being the ONE and ONLY person who coordinates all facets of Brayden's needs.
Tired of coordinating between Brayden's needs and Carter & Luke.
Tired of cleaning up after people.
Tired of not being able to catch up with laundry between the vomits, pool clothes, sports, regular laundry.
Tired of coordinating every one's schedules and needs.
Tired of disciplining the boys about the same things over and over again.
Tired of being the person to not only fix the problems but have to know how it became a problem to start.
Tired of every minute of my day being dictated by someone else's needs.
Tired of feeling like I come last.
Tired of taking care of everyone, when it feels like no one takes care of me (including myself).
Tired of counting on people that I cannot count on.
Tired of asking for help.
Tired of needing help.
Tired of feeling like I inconvenience people.
I know these feelings will pass, I will continue on with everything I do and everything I need to do...just having a down week.