Stay at Home Mom?

We have decided that we need help.

Since having Carter, I have been a stay at home mom. I have enjoyed it. I chose to be a stay at home mom. I know that Jeremy would have supported me if I wanted to go back to work but I loved to be home.

Having two kids, I could handle it and still loved being a stay at home mom.

Then I had Brayden, the third.

I thought I could handle his crazy schedule and still keep up with Carter and Luke's schedule.

I cannot handle it.

We decided that we need help.

Since school started, we are juggling appointments, therapies, school, school activities, etc. I cannot juggle anymore, too many balls are being dropped.

Thus we started a full search for help. One person, full time for Brayden and one person part time for Carter and Luke. Sounds great but I have a big mental hurdle. I never thought I would be one of those people with a nanny. I am a stay at home mom because I want to be a stay at home mom. The idea of having someone in my house...it is just not what I expected to happen when raising my boys.

Having a nanny is a bit scary. Carter and Luke can tell us about the person: what they did or did not do, activities, and more. Brayden cannot do that. He has seizures, meds, feeding tube... Will they know how to handle it? I have rarely left him with family let alone someone else.

We can list all of the qualifications that would be good but how do I find that person that will love and care for them, far beyond feeding and dressing them.

I pray that we will find the right people, a good fit for our family. I know that it will be great to have a nanny because we need help.