I spoke yesterday but spent the last two weeks thinking and preparing.
I thought about all of the little lessons God has taught us along the way. I read through emails I sent out starting from the day Brayden was born. I read through the blog from the beginning. I started to outline major events, tests, 911 calls, doctor visits, etc. Looking at it on paper, it was a lot. Almost every month (almost every other week) we have had significant things happening with Brayden. It was exhausting to read through it.
I also looked through tons of pictures and in case you haven't noticed I take pictures of everything and I am glad I do, it helps me see where we have been. Some of the pictures are taken with my nice camera, some with a little digital and some with my phone. Some of the pictures are of happy times others of difficult times. I came across pictures of his seizures and the countless days of bloody vomit (I took them to show the doctors so they knew what we were seeing at home). I cringed at those.
It was hard looking back. Feeling those moments when we heard bad news and more bad news or found Brayden is in yet another delicate state with his seizures or GI problems. It brought back deep emotions that I have to admit I rarely think about and try my hardest not to dwell on.
I spoke. I choked back lots of tears and did my best to share.
I did notice when preparing that I have written a lot about expectations over the past few years...the next blog will be about that...
For now, here are some of pictures I passed around yesterday as I shared our story. Each picture has a story behind it...each picture is worth a thousand words, some good, some bad.